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Sep
26

Your Sin, My Sin, and Yeshua

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How Beautiful on the mountains are the feet of those who bring good news, who proclaim peace, who bring good tidings, who proclaim salvation, who say to Zion, “Your God reigns!”

We all have a moral compass we use to navigate the world; something we use to help us make decisions, discern right from wrong. 

We all serve a god. It could be YHWH or allah or shiva. Even the atheist serves a god; its name is self. Often times Christians create other gods to serve; some of their names are self- righteousness, hypocrisy, and selectiveness. 

My moral compass is the inerrant, God-breathed, sixty-six book canon of Holy Scriptures. I believe the Old and New Testament are one book; both apply to my life and govern all my decisions. I serve YHWH. I believe only He gets to decide what is holy and what is not holy, what is right and what is wrong. No where in Scripture does He give me permission to veer from His Word. I believe Yeshua was God in the flesh who came to be our salvation and the light by which all darkness is dispelled; He is my Savior and my King and the only one I serve.

You might be wondering why I am beginning a blog post this way. Most of you who read my posts and follow me on social media know exactly what I believe. But this morning I awoke to a message; it read…“There is a petition on my page…please go sign it…they are trying to start a gay club in the high school and there is a teacher supporting it!!”

And my first thought was, “Did Yeshua ever sign a petition?”

There is a worldly attitude that purports if something exists, such as a club or opinion or attitude,  that we don’t agree with, it is viewed as “being pushed down our throats” or “forcing us to conform.” There has been a violation of our rights if someone disagrees with what we believe. And the flip side of this belief is if you have an opinion some behavior is wrong, then you are labeled a phobic. For some reason people think that everything in the world needs to conform to what they believe and everyone else is wrong or racist or phobic or intolerant. And then the yelling and name calling and threatening begin. We have become our own god and everyone must serve what we say is right. Emotion rules instead of truth.

So I ask what is the topic of the next petition? Vegans shutting down the Fly Fishing Club. Atheists shutting down the Fellowship of Christian Athletes. I can take any school club and find someone who would oppose it.

We can, and ought to, call sin what it is: transgression of the Torah. We can, and ought to,  use the Scriptures for rebuking and for teaching. We can share the Gospel message. But then, if the message is refused, we do as Yeshua told us to do: Shake the dust off our feet and move on. We are the planters of truth and God is the changer of hearts. Yeshua said follow me. Yeshua said love God and love your neighbor because all the laws of Torah encompass these two instructions. And just to be clear, we can not fully love God or our neighbor without following Torah and being in a covenant relationship with Yeshua. I am to bear the image of my Creator and reflect the image of my Savior. I am to be a set-apart creation. I am to be a light in the world. I am not to hide or side step what I believe, but I must also be able to back up my beliefs with Scripture. I am to speak truth in love and with kindness on my lips. No one ever won anyone over to their way of thinking by shaming them or screaming at them or humiliating them or bullying them. And these actions are contrary to what Yeshua taught. He did not teach us to destroy others with self-righteous fueled hate and haughty self-proclaimed piety. If those around us only ever see what we are opposed to, then we have failed in spreading the gospel message.

If you are a Christian, and your view is homosexuality is a sin, but you still eat swine, then you have some explaining to do. Why is your sin acceptable and theirs is not? Because God calls both an abomination among a multitude of other things.

And so the trinity of self-righteousness, hypocrisy, and selectiveness appear. Their false gospel message is clear: No matter what my sin is I am above you and your sin; My sin is okay, but yours is not; I can choose what is sin and what it is not based on my own twisting and misuse of the Scriptures. 

Perhaps it is time to read your Bible and find out what God says is wrong. Because if you believe that Yeshua taught anything in the New Testament contrary to what God said in the Old Testament, you do not believe Yeshua is God and are denying His deity. God does not lie. God does not change. His word stands forever. And he does nothing without first revealing it to His prophets. Yeshua taught the Father’s doctrine and the Father’s doctrine is Torah. 

Obedience to God is not a selective choosing and following only what Scriptures we deem necessary to paint a picture to the world of what being a good Christian looks like. Obedience to God is following His word – all of it – and conforming to His code of holiness which is the Torah. We can exist in the world not conforming to it and we can remain undefiled by it if we are pursuing holiness. Because if we are pursuing holiness, we are much more concerned with our own sin than the sins of others. We are to be holy because God is holy. This means following His rules set forth in Scripture. A good Christian attitude is not I am right and you are wrong; it is I love you, I want what is best for you, this is what God says, and I am going to pray for you to see His truth. And then we let God do what He does best – change hearts.

So will I sign your petition? I think not because it is birthed from a place of hypocrisy and hate instead of truth and love. 

One day Yeshua is going to return. No matter what each of us believes, every knee is going to bend and every mouth is going to confess that Yeshua is Lord. And He is going to be the one to judge our words, thoughts, and deeds. We all have enough to answer for in our own lives. And answer we will. I just don’t want my answer to be that I spent so much time worrying about the sins of my neighbor that I forgot to love them and share Yeshua’s truth with them. I don’t want to say that I spent my time slandering and gossiping about someone else’s sins, when it is my own sins needing to be repented of. Most of all, I don’t want to say that I was so filled with hate and venom and self-righteous judgement that I not only marred His image, but that I turned others away from ever wanting to enter a covenant relationship with Him.

Beware of the lines you create and of the ones you cross because those lines will identify whom you serve. As for me, I serve Yeshua, my King and my Messiah. And I hope you do as well..

Jun
25

Submission Required

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Now great crowds accompanied him, and he turned and said to them, “If anyone comes to me and does not hate his own father and mother and wife and children and brothers and sisters, yes, and even his own life, he cannot be my disciple. Whoever does not bear his own cross and come after me cannot be my disciple. For which of you, desiring to build a tower, does not first sit down and count the cost, whether he has enough to complete it? Otherwise, when he has laid a foundation and is not able to finish, all who see it begin to mock him, saying, ‘This man began to build and was not able to finish.’ Or what king, going out to encounter another king in war, will not sit down first and deliberate whether he is able with ten thousand to meet him who comes against him with twenty thousand? And if not, while the other is yet a great way off, he sends a delegation and asks for terms of peace. So therefore, any one of you who does not renounce all that he has cannot be my disciple. ~ Luke 14:25-33

The dream still lingers years later, crashing through my days, vivid in my mind. Conversations about the dream turn to hurtful accusations and tearful confessions, forgivenesses that have been denied and words uttered that can never be retrieved and forever mar. Interpretations fall on deaf ears. More dreams come. Confirmations abound. And the one who needs to see them is blinded, heart hardened, feet planted in a stance of defiance.

I feel lost, anxious, abandoned, unworthy, unloved.

I want to be saved from this chaos and sleepless wrestling of things I cannot control. I want Yeshua to calm this storm and conform it to what I want. I want my version of how it plays out like a movie in my mind.

Instead I get panic knowing I cannot control the outcome. Not this time. No words I speak will sway. No tears I cry soften a heart. 

I do not know what will be required of me in this life, what sacrifices I will need to make to be a disciple of Yeshua. I know this: I do not get to choose what is required of me. I gave that up when I entered this covenant relationship. I can wrestle with God, and wrestle I have, but in the end it is His will and not mine. It costs everything to follow Yeshua and if I am not willing to lay down anything, everything even, then I am not worthy to follow Him. Yeshua died for me, paid the price for every sin I committed and every sin I will commit. Sins that deserve death. Sins I do not have to die for. 

And the cost of this? Loyalty to my King and to Him alone.

The cost of discipleship is great at times. The pain of pruning is often excruciating, pain I often think is more than I can bear. Burying children is a crippling pain, and even fifteen years later the weight of it is crushing at times. The worst pain I thought I would ever have to bear. There is a part me of that wants to tell God that it should have been enough. Why should I ever have to sacrifice another thing? What more could possibly be needed to bring me to submission?

His answer: whatever keeps me on my knees in prayer, whatever makes me understand I am not in control, whatever conforms me to Yeshua’s image, whatever it takes to purge unholiness. 

Because holiness is the goal lest I ever forget.

What about my house burning to the ground? What about a son who may never be in covenant with Yeshua? What about the severing of a marriage? What about…? 

Insert whatever you want into that question. It all has a value placed upon it.  

This afternoon I wrestle and I cry and beg Him to hear me. On my knees, broken and desperate, I echo back scripture that contains promises and truth. I beg Him to find another way, but in the end whisper, “Your will not mine, never, ever let it be my will, only let it always, always, always  be Yours.”

Yesterday I stood on the porch steps with thunder crashing and in drenching rain that soaked me cold. The oaks bent hard and low submitting to the wind blowing from every direction. This storm has raged and never-ending chaos has ruled for far too long. Just submit already I tell myself. But submitting quickly is not something I do.  I thought maybe the rain would wash away the anxiety and the broken heartedness and the chaos. 

So much for movie symbolism in real life. 

After the wrestling is over and the crying out for mercy has ended, the pleading has ceased and the submitting whispered. 

I get up.

I dust off my knees. 

I wipe away the tears. 

I keep my focus on the only one who is worthy. Yeshua. Always on Yeshua.

Because I know, that whatever happens next, His strength is sufficient. His mercy is great and His love greater. I know that no matter what, this refining creates holiness and holiness reflects Yeshua. So I plant my own feet on a path that follows my King knowing that no matter where He leads me I will follow, no matter what sacrifice He asks of me it is Kingdom worthy.

And for the first time in days and weeks and months I cannot count, I feel free and settled and at peace. Whatever He requires of me, the result and the reward will be worth it because everything I do is for Yeshua.

mercy, peace, and love be multiplied to you – Elizabeth

Jul
9

On Sacred Names and Holy Days and Whatnot

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Consecrate yourselves, therefore, and be holy, for I am Yahweh your Elohim.

Leviticus 20:7

On our journeys through this life, things can change; when you walk with Yeshua, it is a certainty. This path of sanctification we travel leads us to truths that transform our thoughts and our actions. We do not travel this path at the same speed or learn the same way so patience is a requirement – with ourselves and with each other.

We spend too much energy fighting and fussing over who is right instead of just doing what is right. We spend too much energy putting others in their place only to find we are out of ours. Satan loves this discord among us and he wants it to stay just that way; personally, I believe he gets his way much too often.

I want to explain some things because the entirety of my life I have been misunderstood. When speaking, I am the least articulate person in the world and I often misspeak creating more confusion. As the last couple of years have worn on, things have been said about me that were crushing. At first I thought people were just being mean with their small town gossip; then one of my friends on Facebook, someone I had known for over a decade, chimed in with a private message that echoed the same sentiments. Now after some time isolating myself, tending to and forgiving the hurt, I have come to realize all of their comments were borne out of arrogance and ignorance. The ignorance I can help change with my writing if they are willing to test it all to the scriptures; the arrogance I can do nothing about. The hardening and softening of hearts is Yahweh’s business; all I can do is forgive as I have been forgiven. For those who just simply do not understand the changes, this is for you. And I would ask that you simply extend the grace to me that I extend to you so we might learn the truth of scriptures together.

On Sacred Names

I am not a sacred namer. I believe there is just as much power in the name of Jesus as there is in Yeshua. For me though, there is something about calling Him by His name that is pleasant and pleasing. Let’s be honest here, He is not the one who is confused about who He is. Whether we call Him Jesus or Yeshua – He knows when we are calling on Him and He knows just what to do.

YWHW or as I have been writing YaHWeH or Yahweh, is God’s name. Elohim is the same as God and is a title. In the King James version of the Bible, when it says “the LORD” it means YWHW. So when I type, Yahweh your Elohim it means the same thing as the LORD your God. I just prefer to call Yahweh by His name instead of by His title. Just like Yeshua, whether you call Him God or LORD or Yahweh or Abba (Father) or Adonai (title for Lords), He knows who you are calling on and exactly what to do. We are all just doing the best we can with some consonants.  I am sure one day, He will set us all right because I feel certain none of us are saying it correctly. And now I am not a betting girl, but I think that is a pretty sure bet.

On Holidays and Holy Days

In our household, we no longer celebrate Christmas or Easter. There are many people who believe they are pagan in origin and maybe they are; I am not going to debate those things. I simply see no basis in Scripture for them to be celebrated. They are man created and instituted traditions, and Yeshua Himself taught against traditions that took the place Yahweh’s doctrine (Matthew 15:9, Mark 7:7).  I don’t celebrate Purim or Hanukkah either although for different reasons.

In Leviticus 23, Yahweh gives us Holy Days to celebrate and we celebrate them to the best of our ability. For example: During Passover and Unleavened Bread we don’t slaughter a lamb, but we do remove the leaven from our home and eat unleavened bread for seven days. On Day of Atonement, we fast and pray. During Tabernacles, we camp out for eight days. We keep the seventh day Sabbath as commanded from sundown Friday to sundown Saturday. At the point in history when Yahweh gave these commandments there were no jews; there were only Hebrews – or those who had “crossed over” to follow Yahweh. (This will be a topic we will cover later on.) The point is that we are not to be like the world; we are to live set apart. Yahweh gave these Holy Days and His commandments to create in us holiness because He is holy (Leviticus 20:7, 1 Peter 1:15-17), so the world would know to whom we belong.

I also want to note this: I see nothing wrong with worshipping on Sunday. I think we ought to be worshipping everyday; that is how the apostles did things. But there is a command to keep the seventh day set apart and holy (Exodus 20:8). The seventh day Sabbath has not been replaced nor changed to the first day of the week; we need to understand this and obey the command given by Yahweh to keep it holy and set apart.

On Food

We adhere to the Leviticus 11 diet. He gave it to us for a reason – so we would be healthy. Period. So don’t be offended if you have a low country boil or bake a ham and I don’t partake. I know most people believe that Acts chapter 10 gives us authority to eat all things, but my studies have led me to believe this is a misconception. And we will discuss this in greater detail in another blog post.

The Torah

I am learning the doctrine of Yahweh and applying what should be applied. The Torah is our instruction for righteousness.(John 7:16, Proverbs 4:2)  Yeshua said it would not pass away until Heaven and Earth pass away and last I checked they are still here. (Matthew 5:17-19) Often times, we are following the traditions of men created by the church fathers and don’t even realize they contradict what scripture says. Yahweh was clear when He told us not to add to nor take away from His word.(Deuteronomy 4:2,Deuteronomy 12:32,Revelation 22:18) If we educate ourselves with learning Torah, then we can spot false teachers and false teachings, and we can better understand what Yeshua and Paul actually taught.  It seems to me people seem more concerned with what they think Paul said instead of what Yeshua plainly said. I think we need to study these things because anyone who has spent time in the New Testament knows Paul loved Yeshua, told us to imitate him as he imitated Christ(1 Corinthians 11:1), so does it seem He would contradict what Yeshua taught? If you have not thought about this before, I urge you to consider it now and pray about clarity to understand.

In closing, I will leave you with this…

I think not one of us ought to get too high and mighty about things…we all can be wrong about anything and we need to remain humble enough that Yahweh can mold us and teach us His wisdom and His ways and His truth. If our time is spent with our noses in our Bibles learning the ways of Yahweh and Yeshua, and our time is spent serving as Yeshua taught us, we will not  have time to be arrogant for we will be too busy spending the time at Yeshua’s feet being the servants and the disciples He calls us to be.

 And Yeshua said to them, “Come after me, and I shall make you to become fishers of men.”

Matthew 4:19

Jul
15

Earning Love and Forgiveness

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The Lord is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer;

My God, My strength, in whom I will trust;

My shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.

I will call upon the Lord,

who is worthy to be praised;

So shall I be saved from my enemies.

~ Psalm 18:2-3 nkjv

I learned some valuable lessons this week as I sat at Jesus’ feet.

When I tie my worth to the misunderstood opinions of others,

I lose sight of who God created me to be.

When I waste time trying to prove my heart is pure and holds no ill-intentions,

I spend too much time on my external self instead of my spirit.

When I live within another’s unforgiveness,

I forget that the only forgiveness that matters comes from Christ and the conditions are simple:  

I must only ask once with a humble and  repentive heart,

and forgiveness is gifted.

When love is conditional and required to be earned,

I will never have success in achieving that love.

Jesus does not make me beg Him for forgiveness

nor must I aspire to unreasonable requests

or perform unrealistic tasks to achieve it.

Jesus does not make me feel unworthy.

Jesus does not require His love be earned nor does He withhold it from me.

Jesus does not show arrogance or pride.

Jesus chooses kindness and love and whispers truth to my heart.

Jesus loves me in spite of all my unworthiness and accepts me just as I am.

And in the raining down of anarchy and the chaos of another,

His reigning

will ground me and right me in the direction

He leads me

granting

peace to my world.

Sep
27

Psalm 33

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Today, I thank God for my friend Mary, who taught me about the life of a Monarch Butterfly.

Happy Birthday friend!

May God bless you and keep you, may He make His face to shine upon you and sing sweet songs to your heart every day. I love you and treasure you beyond measure.

Peace and Love,

your friend,

‘Lizbeth.

Psalm 33

A Psalm of Joy

Rejoice in the Lord, O you righteous!

For praise from the upright is beautiful.

Praise the Lord with the harp; make melody to Him with an instrument of ten strings.

Sing to Him a new song; play skillfully with a shout of joy.

For the word of the Lord is right, and all His work is done in truth.

He loves righteousness and justice;

The earth is full of the goodness of the Lord.

By word of the Lord the heavens were made, and all the host of them by the breath of His mouth.

He gathers the waters of the sea together as a heap;

He lays up the deep in storehouses.

Let all the earth fear the Lord;

Let all the inhabitants of the world stand in awe of Him.

For He spoke, and it was done; He commanded and it stood fast.

The Lord brings the counsel of nations to nothing;

He makes the plans of the peoples of no effect.

The counsel of the Lord stands forever, the plans of His heart to all generations.

Blessed is the nation whose God is the Lord, the He has chosen as His own inheritance.

The Lord looks from heaven; He sees all the sons of men.

From the place of His dwelling He looks on all the inhabitants of the earth;

He fashions their hearts individually; He considers their works.

No king is saved by the multitude of an army;

A mighty man is not delivered by great strength.

A horse is a vain hope for safety, neither shall it deliver any by its great strength.

Behold, the eye of the Lord is on those who fear Him,

On those who hope in His mercy,

to deliver their soul from death, and to keep them alive in famine.

Our soul waits for the Lord;

He is our help and our shield.

For our heart shall rejoice in Him,

because we have trusted in His holy name.

Let Your mercy, O Lord, be upon us, just as we hope in You.

~Psalm 33, nkjv

Aug
11

Island Time

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Give unto the Lord the glory due to His name; worship the Lord in the beauty of holiness. {Psalm 29:2}

Aloha!

Beach, Big Island of Hawaii

 

Randy and I have returned from our beautiful vacation in Hawaii.  It was amazing and I am looking forward to sharing some of the wonderful experiences we had there.  During the next few days, I will be revealing all the new things about A Quiet Chaos’ new home.  It had been planned for this week, but I am having a little trouble shifting from Island time to Northern Virginia time.  Then to top it off, I had some crazy reaction to something in the air and I have been taking Benadryl for four days.  So I am a little behind this week to say the least.

 

Between bouts of scratching and unpacking, I literally stumbled across my journal and opened it to find some scrap pieces of paper I had written on during the overnight flight home.  So I thought, what better way to kick off the revealing of all things new, is to tell you one of the many places I found God.

 

Each Friday, I will reveal my favorite place that I found God during the week and I will ask you to share where you found God.

 

This week I found God in a thunderstorm.  The plane hums  in the darkness and a thunderstorm brews in a velvet sky full of stars.  The lightening strikes and illuminates towers of clouds. The one in the middle looks like a throne. The lightening strikes so quickly, it appears as sharp flickering lights – as if many people have their hands on light switches, flipping them up and down, on and off, over and over again.  We are flying on the edge of the storm.  It stretches for miles and more; mere glimpses of God’s almighty power.  It is mesmerizing and I sit in awe as a shooting star falls from the Heavens to the Earth below me.  A gift, as I fight sleep like a toddler who is not quite ready for bed, waiting for one more sliver of beauty before I relent and close my eyes to accept sleep.  The plane rocks on the turbulence , lulling me and I count stars and write words.  I love to fly because I feel a gain a glimpse of what the earth below must look like from God’s view.  I feel closer to God as I fly through the midnight skies as if it only has to do with proximity, but it is so much more.  I am present to feel God’s creative power with wonder like a child, reaching out as if the shorter distance might allow me to touch Heaven for a moment – just one ephemeral moment. I want to close my eyes, but the insomniac in me says, “no,” so I continue to write words, slow down my mind, empty it to just exist for a few moments in stillness.  I doze and awaken to dawn begging to make her entrance as the pale morning light washes away the velvety darkness and the twinkling stars.  The half moon hangs on, luminescent, pure. An orange ball of fire rises in the east lifting the fog from the slumbering earth, and the coolness of the night clings to my skin in a chill as I exit Dulles into the waiting morning sunshine.

 

Now, it is your turn so leave please leave a comment below and tell me…

 

Where did you find God this week? 


Mercy, peace and love be multiplied to you,

Elizabeth

Jul
31

Hawaii Awaits

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I wanted to welcome you to the new home for A Quiet Chaos.  I would love for you to spend some time this upcoming week to explore the new site while I am away with my husband in Hawaii. If you haven’t already, take a moment and sign up for the e-mail delivery of  new blog posts.  There are lots of new things on the horizon and I am sure you won’t want to miss a thing!  If this is your first visit to A Quiet Chaos, take time to read through the archives and if you are an old friend, take some time to revisit your favorites.  I look forward to sharing all the places I find God in Hawaii…I am certain the crashing waves will inspire me.  So until we meet again, Mercy, peace and love be multiplied to you, Elizabeth
Sep
26

Your Sin, My Sin, and Yeshua

How Beautiful on the mountains are the feet of those who bring good news, who proclaim peace, who bring good tidings, who proclaim salvation, who say to Zion, “Your God reigns!” We all have a moral compass we use to navigate the world; something we use to help us make decisions, discern right from wrong.  We all serve a god. It could be YHWH or allah or shiva. Even the atheist serves a...
Jun
25

Submission Required

Now great crowds accompanied him, and he turned and said to them, “If anyone comes to me and does not hate his own father and mother and wife and children and brothers and sisters, yes, and even his own life, he cannot be my disciple. Whoever does not bear his own cross and come after me cannot be my disciple. For which of you, desiring to build a tower, does not first sit down and count the cost, whether...
Jul
9

On Sacred Names and Holy Days and Whatnot

Consecrate yourselves, therefore, and be holy, for I am Yahweh your Elohim. Leviticus 20:7 On our journeys through this life, things can change; when you walk with Yeshua, it is a certainty. This path of sanctification we travel leads us to truths that transform our thoughts and our actions. We do not travel this path at the same speed or learn the same way so patience is a requirement – with...
Jul
15

Earning Love and Forgiveness

The Lord is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer; My God, My strength, in whom I will trust; My shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold. I will call upon the Lord, who is worthy to be praised; So shall I be saved from my enemies. ~ Psalm 18:2-3 nkjv I learned some valuable lessons this week as I sat at Jesus’ feet. When I tie my worth to the misunderstood opinions of others, I lose...
Sep
27

Psalm 33

Today, I thank God for my friend Mary, who taught me about the life of a Monarch Butterfly. Happy Birthday friend! May God bless you and keep you, may He make His face to shine upon you and sing sweet songs to your heart every day. I love you and treasure you beyond measure. Peace and Love, your friend, ‘Lizbeth. Psalm 33 A Psalm of Joy Rejoice in the Lord, O you righteous! For praise from the upright is...
Aug
11

Island Time

Give unto the Lord the glory due to His name; worship the Lord in the beauty of holiness. {Psalm 29:2} Aloha!   Randy and I have returned from our beautiful vacation in Hawaii.  It was amazing and I am looking forward to sharing some of the wonderful experiences we had there.  During the next few days, I will be revealing all the new things about A Quiet Chaos’ new home.  It had been planned...
Jul
31

Hawaii Awaits

I wanted to welcome you to the new home for A Quiet Chaos.  I would love for you to spend some time this upcoming week to explore the new site while I am away with my husband in Hawaii. If you haven’t already, take a moment and sign up for the e-mail delivery of  new blog posts.  There are lots of new things on the horizon and I am sure you won’t want to miss a thing!  If this is your first...

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