The Slippage of Time

…being persuaded of this, that He who has begun a good work in you shall perfect it until the day of Yeshua Messiah. ~ Philiipians 1:6

IMG_1653The Father has been working on me for a while now, spurring new thoughts and understandings, molding me and shaping me to closer resemble His vision of me. To some of you it may seem possibly I fell off the edge of the world or gave up writing or decided being a hermit was a better option than living among society. The truth is Adonai has turned my entire world upside down and shown me truths about Him, about His Word, about myself, I could never have imagined. And as each new day dawns, when I think I could not be any more amazed, He reveals more truth, more depth of understanding, more wisdom.

There was a time when I believed that salvation was the end goal and afterwards I ought to just do my best to be a good person. And then if I did something wrong or Adonai wanted me to do something for Him, I would get a feeling – a nudge, an idea, an intuition – and it would just seem like the right thing to do; that obedience was turning those feelings into actions. But feelings flow from the heart and Jeremiah tells me my heart, above all things is wicked and deceitful and none can know it and Solomon tells me to guard my  heart because all I do flows from it. These warnings are imperative because I am a carnal being, my flesh self-serving.

And The Father put me here to serve Him and not myself.  Because it is never about me; it is always about Him. There is only one truth: His truth. The only way to learn that truth is to come before Him in stillness and humility with an ear trained to listen, an eye trained to see, and a mind trained to meditate on His word. He has revealed truth to me no man can teach and His word tells me that if His word abides in me, I have no need for a teacher because He will teach me.

When I walked away from the altar and was baptized, it was the beginning, not the end. The goal is not salvation; the goal is sanctification. And sanctification is a process that never ends. Salvation is the pivot point, the opening door, the beginning of an intimate relationship with Yeshua, our Messiah, who because of His gift of grace allows me to be in fellowship with The Father. It is then Adonai is able to mold me into a vessel for use by cultivating my fruits reflecting the gospel message to the world. Because truly the best sermons are lived, not preached.

I will not sit here and write to you that sanctification comes easily. I have fought Him as much as I have delighted in fellowship with Him. I have questioned and doubted and prayed pleading prayers. I have told Him, in great detail, how much differently I would be handling things. And yet, I can look back and reflect on how perfectly He is teaching me and changing me.

IMG_1652A friend told me, just the other day while we sat drinking coffee, that we always look at things from our own perspective and we must understand we are not the only people Adonai is working on – everyone we interact with is learning a lesson from Him too. And that has stuck with me. I have rolled it around and considered it and I realized something so profound that before had eluded me: this is why it is so important to be grounded in the Word. It teaches me how to behave and how to respond in every circumstance and if I follow its instructions for living, I can accurately reflect the gospel in everything I do, in everything I say, everywhere I am, and with whomever I interact.

I walked away from my Southern Baptist church just shy of two years ago and began a journey discovering the Biblical roots of my faith. I entered this journey as simply desiring to live a Biblical life: learn the truth of the scriptures in the context of their writing by using the Bible as the sole authority. For a time I was a part of a group who I thought had the same intentions, but who have since gravitated to the Hebrew Roots movement. I have found them to be just as intolerant as my previous church to whomever strays from their own ideas or questions behaviors, doctrines, and teachings not aligning with scripture.

So I found myself in a time of isolation which turned into a time of daily sweet fellowship with Adonai. This solitude has become a sanctuary of peace and stillness before Him. In 1 John 2:27 it says, “And you, the anointing that you received from Him abides in you, and you have no need that anyone should teach you. But just as the same anointing teaches you concerning all things and is true and is no lie, and just as it has taught you, you shall abide in Him.”  So now is the time for me to rest in Him and allow His Word to flood the places laid bare by questions and doubt and hurts inflicted by those claiming to belong to Him. It is a time to have gratitude for having man instituted doctrines and cultish ungodliness pruned from my life, for focus being redirected to where it belongs – on Yeshua. For in all things I serve either the world or Yeshua, it is one or it is the other, but I can not serve both. I will be known by my fruits. He has brought me to a place where I can choose on what I stand and who I follow. Always I will choose the Father’s doctrine and always I will choose to follow Yeshua.


And what do I believe?

I believe every word of scripture is inspired and breathed by Adonai (God) Himself.

2 Timothy 3:16-17 Hebrews 4:12

I believe Adonai does not change.

Malachi 3:6 Hebrews 13:8

I believe Yeshua (Jesus) is a gift of grace and the source of my salvation – a salvation that can not be earned no matter what I do. He is The Word made flesh – the walking, breathing, living Torah. He is The Way, The Truth, and The Life and the only way to The Father. He is coming again to reign as King.

John 3:16 John 14:6 Psalm 119:1,142 Proverbs 13:14 John 1:1-18 Revelation 19:13, 22:12

I believe that Yeshua is the Son of Adonai and was born of the virgin Mary as prophesied.

Isaiah 7:14 Luke 1  1 John 4:9

I believe Yeshua died for my sins,  rose again, and is seated at the right hand of the Father.

Matthew 12:40 Mark 16:19 Psalm 110:1 Luke  24:51

I believe Yeshua is my intercessor.

Hebrews 7:25 Romans 8:34

I believe I am to be obedient to all Adonai’s commandments; I may not pick and choose my way through them. I am not to add to nor take away from them. They are statutes to be followed perpetually, forever, and throughout all generations.

John 3:17 Leviticus 24:22 Exodus 12:49 Numbers 15:16 Deuteronomy 4:2

I believe the seventh day Sabbath instituted at creation is to be kept holy.

Genesis 2:1-3 Exodus 16, 20:10 Mark 2:27

I believe all persons entrusted to teach, preach, or prophesy must pass the Deuteronomy 13 test.

Deuteronomy 13

I believe the Ruach Ha’qodesh (Holy Spirit) is my helper sent at Shavuot (Pentecost) so that the Torah could be written on my heart. The Set-apart Spirit guides me in walking as Yeshua did when He walked the earth setting the example I am to follow.

Jeremiah 31:33  1 John 2:6

I believe the Torah (the first five books of the Bible) is still to be followed and instructs me in being one of a set apart people as Adonai instructs me to be. I am to be holy for He is holy.

Leviticus 20:26  1 Peter 1:15-17

I believe that Yeshua did not come to abolish the law, but magnify it and be my example of what it looked like to live it perfectly. I believe that Yeshua did not come to teach a new doctrine, but taught the doctrine of The Father.

Matthew 5:17-20 John 7:16 Proverbs 4:2

I believe that sin is transgression of the law.

1 John 3:4 Matthew 5:19, 7:21-23

I believe the law is not burdensome as is currently taught in the church.

1 John 5:2-4 Deuteronomy 30:11

I believe Adonai does nothing without first revealing it to His servants the prophets; His plan for this world and His created are perfectly and in-errantly contained within The Holy Scriptures.

Amos 3:7

I believe that Adonai loves our unity as long as if is founded in His Truth.

1 Corinthians 1:10 1 Corinthians 12:27 Ephesians 2:17-19 John 17:17 Psalm 119



A final thought…

In August, while still attending the Hebrew Roots fellowship, I was warned by the leader’s wife that I should not be writing because it was a form of teaching and women were not to teach. It came on the heels of my writing the previous three blogs. No one, not one pastor, not one person, had ever told me this before. I had to re-evaluate the purpose of this blog. It set me back and caused me to question whether I should be writing because above all I want to be aligned with the authority of Scripture. It forced me to go back and reread my posts, and while I found places where my understanding was incorrect and skewed by the doctrines of men, I found this blog to be what it was always intended to be: a record of my journey with Yeshua. It is a place where I hope you see His mercy and grace and infinite love, a place where I hope it causes you to reflect on your own journey. I am in no way attempting to hold any authority over you. I author this blog under the full authority of my husband and he reads everything I post prior to it being posted.  I am a disciple and a student of Yeshua. I am learning how to walk as He walked. I am doing my best to follow His example. He tells me to make disciples and to teach them His commandments; the only way I know to do this is to mimic His example and share what I am learning day by day as I spend time in His presence. I will not ever claim to have it all figured out and should you find error in my understanding I would hope you would contact me or comment and share your knowledge. It is important we help each other learn. This blog has only ever been about my journey walking with Yeshua and that is all it will ever be. It is my hope that what is displayed here in these pages is love and humility and through these words that I write you see light shined in darkness to illuminate His Truth.

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